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Just done with Terry Mcmillan’s “Disappearing Act”…. (the other night) It’s a must-read romance story (for me..lol)… But i love the notebook more than this,haha!

Just to sum it up…the story is all about Zora, a twentysomething, talented singer, a college-educated woman who has chosen bad men all along the way (had done a lot of shits becoz of these guys). She is trying to figure out then why she’s chosen these guys and is determined not to repeat these mistakes.

Other main character is Franklin—a man whom you will love and hate at the same time. He has a huge heart but is burdened by his inability to achieve what he is capable of.

They had a lot of ups and downs…a lot of misunderstandings due to differences in their backgrounds and expectations. But the story continues…and wOw…TErry Mcmillan is really a good author, he can add life to a story that everytime u read it…u can easily relate that to situations in real life…:-)

In Zora’s situation when he had affairs with those goddam assholes…it’s like a situation wherein she’s trying to imply that it’s not easy being a woman in a man’s world…and it’s as if we just have to take what we can get if we want the social status that comes with having a man…which is…absolutely a shit,ayt?…haha!!! i mean her life became miserable..complicated etcetera because of those men…(cnt even say JUST because of those men…coz Ai duNnoi, it might happen to me as well…in due time,haha)

Well perhaps…that’s what we call the magic of “love”…i perfectly understand that…but then, i can still promise not to do what she had done in her love affairs…never,haha!

As the story ends…a realization simply came out from me…yeah,haha, i dunnoi how to say it but I just happen to think that sometimes it’s just great to simply live alone or to be just yourself without a man—many women cud actually do that!!! And if i will not be lucky enough to be totally committed with someone whom i trully love…wud prefer to stay “single” all my life…ahaha,(knock on wood!)

(from a friend…)
You Are My Life 
Viraj Bhandare 
   
 There was a boy in India who was sent by his parents to a boarding school. Before being sent away this boy was the brightest student in his class. He was at the top in every competition. He was a champion.

But the boy changed after leaving home and attending the boarding school. His grades started dropping. He hated being in a group. He was lonely all the time. And there were especially dark times when he felt like committing suicide. All of this because he felt worthless and that no one loved him.

His parents started worrying about the boy. But even they did not know what was wrong with him. So his dad decided to travel to the boarding school and talk with him.

They sat on the bank of the lake near the school. The father started asking him casual questions about his classes, teachers and sports. After some time his dad said, ‘Do you know son, why I am here today?”

The boy answered back, “to check my grades?”

“No, no” his dad replied, “I am here to tell you that you are the most important person for me. I want to see you happy. I don’t care about grades. I care about you. I care about your happiness. YOU ARE MY LIFE.”

These words caused the boy’s eyes to fill with tears. He hugged his dad. They didn’t say anything to each other for a long time.

Now the boy had everything he wanted. He knew there was someone on this earth who cared for him deeply. He meant the world to someone. And today this young man is in college at the top of his class and no one has ever seen him sad!

Thanks a lot dad. YOU ARE MY LIFE!

Kinda moved by this story…got this from a friend, ’twas sent to my email…
It’s like wOw…i felt the same way before…
Had this One night na super stressed…felt like giving up…daming requirements sa schOoL etceterea…etceteRa…dun have extra allowance para gumala just to lessen the pain am feelin…
And then i sent a BLANK message to them…my mom called….talked to both of them…dad gave a super madamdaming advice…and dats it, am ok na ulet….huh!!!
I really love my dAd…even before am more comfy with him…kesa sa mOm:-)
I do look up to him.. a great man…grabeh!
That’s why till now…ayoko pa ring masira yung trust he had given me from the very first day na napalayo ako sa hauZ…(wAs only 16 then…)..dun wanna be a failure to him….eMo lang, hehe!

Happy New Year Everyone…
We shud be thanful that we are again blessed with another yeaR…
Godbless..:-)

Got a message from a friend hu’s overseas…wOw,din’t notice that’s it’s been 6 mOnths now that we din’t text each other..i mEan me lang pala,haha..we haD a misunderstnding before…petty thing…

‘can’t help my tears from fallin when i read her message…”I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won’t come after me, and I guess that’s what hurts the most”…oWwa,fuck! Texted hEr wiTh the most sincere “SORRY WORDS” and yEah,aFter that..it’s wHen i realizEd that whatever happens…watever the misunderstnding we had before…even if we said nasty…brutal woRds when we fOught…thOse caN’t affEct the bond we have as gudfriends…gRRhh..am so bad talaga…(parang may inaway na naman ako last nite,hehe, shet, sori to her…if u happen to read this…i mean it..sori po)

Felt sorry for ignoring her feelings…malay ko bang am still a friend to her till now,hehe..haiYz!

Quite mean sometimes kc..just can’t help it..especially when am mAd…minsan,i’d rather chus not to talk, not to have my celfone beside me…coz cnt help but to make mura and everything…haha! now i know na why they named me sa floor as “bitchy”…gRrhhhh!!!

lalang, am hapi…had my long lost friend back na,yey:-)

THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE
               (dimsum)

My life was a constant uphill climb
Never got it right
Each one I love
Went through a change of heart

You came and my world turned upside down
You sung a different tune
Can’t let go
It keeps playing on my mind

Now there’s a reason to wake up each day
A reason to shake my blues away
Now I am whole, a lucky soul
Wanna thank you for your love
Thank you. Thank you for your love

Confused , my heart was in a daze
Learned to live with pain
I loved in haste
Then watched it go to waste

You came and brought music to my soul
Inspired me to the very core
You touched me where
No one has been before

Now there’s a reason to wake up each day
I thank the Lord for sending you my way
Now I am whole
A lucky soul
Wanna thank you for your love
Thank you, thank you for your love

I saw the world in shades of black and gray
Turning blue with every passing day
Just when I thought that maybe all was lost
My life took on a new turn
And it’s all because, it’s because
REPEAT CHORUS 2

CODA;
No looking back, no more pain
No more dark clouds, no more rain
Thank you. Thank you for your love.

…love this song :-)…

Owwa…just finished reading John Grisham’s “The Pelican Brief” last night.. nosebleed,haha!

Parang same story lang sya with his “the firm”…pero personally, mas like ko yung “the street lawyer” nya…huh!

Fantastic onE…haha,just love Grishams’ books.. law…justice….political conspiracies:-) wOw,haha!

Reading another buk ulet…”Endangered Pleasures-In Defense of Naps, Bacon, Martinis, Profanity and Other Indulgences”….got it from SM buksale,haha…..”twas written by Barbara Holland……

…here’s 1 commEnt from The Boston Globe re this buk..”The minute the alarm clock punctures our dreams, we go to work. We have convinced ourselves that productivity is the name of the game and that leisure is a notorious sign of laziness. In Endangered Pleasures, Barbara Holland insists that enough is enough. It’s time to kick back, relax, and relish the truly good things in life”. “Delightfully quirky.”-

…love every pages of it…am on page 35 palang actually…lol…

Owwa…just finished reading John Grisham’s “The Pelican Brief” last night.. nosebleed,haha!

Parang same story lang sya with his “the firm”…pero personally, mas like ko yung “the street lawyer” nya…huh!

Fantastic onE…haha,just love Grishams’ books.. law…justice….political conspiracies:-) wOw,haha!

Reading another buk ulet…”Endangered Pleasures-In Defense of Naps, Bacon, Martinis, Profanity and Other Indulgences”….got it from SM buksale,haha…..”twas written by Barbara Holland……

…here’s 1 commEnt from The Boston Globe re this buk..”The minute the alarm clock punctures our dreams, we go to work. We have convinced ourselves that productivity is the name of the game and that leisure is a notorious sign of laziness. In Endangered Pleasures, Barbara Holland insists that enough is enough. It’s time to kick back, relax, and relish the truly good things in life”. “Delightfully quirky.”-

…love every pages of it…am on page 35 palang actually…lol…

Have done a gud deed today…hehehe

On mah way to work, saw a young gurl (in her quite old skul uniform) with her mom (wearing an almost worn-out shirt)….

AM calling a frend on my suncell mob…so i stop for a while (near them)…When all of a sudden saw the young girl cryin…mom said (in kapampangan) “pota naka mangan nasi..atin ka namang chichirya, muli naka potang recess yu” (mamaya kana kumain ng kanin, meron ka namang chichirya jan, uwi ka nalang mayang break nyo)…goSh, kapampangan naku..hahaha

THe gurl might be so gutom…keeps on saying that her tyan is masakit na…then her mom said, if her tatay will arrive she’ll have something to eat….haiyZ!!!

Felt awa, had mah breakfast that mownin kc eh…so guess wat ah did…

‘walked straight ahead then pagtapat sa likod ng ALe, i drop 50 pesos (di naman ako mayaman para magdrop ng 500 or 1000,hahaha)

then after that, kunyari bumalik ako and pa-innocent effect..told the Ale “ate pera nyo po yata ‘to nalaglag…” the fem said not her’s…and dun wanna get the money… told her again na sa kanya talaga yun…and cguro she felt narin something na i just made a kwento on that 50 pesos, hehe

She held mah hand and said “salamat malagu” (malagu in tagalog is maganda,haha..dun wori mejo matanda na yung ale, malabo na cgro mata nun..harhar)

Uhhmm…that’s it…gave the 5o pesos so the young gurl cud eat..and kapalit nun? no fit and right pineapple juice drink today..huh!!!

Go wid pa..they bought lugaw sa palengke…so saya,hehe

Felt like…wOw,devcom at heart padin pala ako,:-) lol!!

During my adolescence no one talked much about gays, lesbians..about homosexuals-the word was not even in common usage then. I gew up in the barrio…in a conservative fam where the topic of sex itself was never discussed!

Now in my early 20’s got 2 know a lot of things…everything was changed..it’s part of growing up….perhaps…

The other night, got a text from a girl who used to be a BI herself (dating both man and woman)

SMS started with a simple hi and hello…then suddenly she asked me…”u really don’t like me to be your gf?!!? Ohhhh heck…watta question..replied back, ‘asked if the question was for me…said “yeah”..told her directly what i felt bout it…told her that i appreciate her liking me, that it’s not wrong for her to feel that..it’s just that it’s a big “NO” for me to feel the same…i mean “NEVER”…that simply wsnt me (It still isn’t)!!!

She just replied back with a question mark…and after that she also sent this message “i understnd how the mind can play strange tricks in an attempt to deny the obvious especially when accpetance is too painful with one’s belief..i know u’ll love me too..”

Damned…just ignored the message, don’t wanna ruin mah night…Before goin to bed, asked her..”what makes u a lesbian? a bisexual?…she replied, “what makes a person straight..you in particular? OhhhwaAhh, fuck… a simple question but weren’t able to answer back asap…askd some friends the same question..ohhh well, same thing happened, some just replied with the question “anu nga ba?..laughss….”

Well..the truth is no one knows why these things are happening nowadays..no one really understnds…and what does it really mean to be a lesbian? to be a gay? to be a bisexual? Certainly this is not all about sex as some beieve.. I mean it’s totally a different world, a different perspective that some cud hardly understand… and i guess, we are dealing about a whole different mind-set in which a GENERAL SENSITIVITY makes itsef evident!!!

Had an argument with a close friend re this before…heck, dun want that to happen again…
…guess,we just have to understnd them…(the most we can do)…

The conversation ended by her..with Alanis Morissette Head over Feet’s chorus… “you’ve aready won me over in spite of me..an don’t be alarmed if i fall head over feet..don’t be surprised if I love you for all that you are..i cudn’t help it, it’s all your fault”…

…gosh,not mah fault…hahaha….gudnite!!!

(thanks for this message Ma’am Minnie)

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, were talking at a reunion and decided to go visit their old university professor, now retired. During their visit, the conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in their work and lives.

Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups — porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain-looking, some expensive, some exquisite — telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the alumni had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said, ‘Notice that all the nice-looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. In most cases, it is just more expensive, and, in some cases, even hides what we drink.

What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups, and then you began eyeing each other’s cups.

Now consider this: Life is the coffee; your job, money, and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain life. The type of cup one has does not define, nor change, the quality of life a person lives. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee God has provided us.’

God makes the coffee, man chooses the cups. The happiest people don’t have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything. Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly.

Enjoy your coffee!

   Gosh, just remember, it was January last year when I started to feel like ewan with my job…you know the kasawaan chuva and everything.

   Life has a lot of things to offer and it will drive you crazy talaga lalo na pag isa ka pang gaga’t kalahati na pabago-bago ang desisyon at walang malinaw na gustog gawin sa buhay.

   Naman, e kung

sana

kasi perpekto lahat ng bagay nang di naman nakaka-frustrate ang mga kabulukang ewan in our surroundings…wheeww, enough, dat cud not be possible.

   In a not-so-serious conversation with a close friend d ader nyt (via sms), I’ve gotta learn and appreciate some things. First is about CONTENTMENT. Well, she mentioned about appreciation on what we already have, be thankful for what we are and the blessings that we are receiving at the moment coz not all people were experiencing those… yeah, right, I know dat, it’s just dat sometimes eh sometimes, hehe, I mean kahit cno naman dmdting yung point sa life yung ders a big question mark na ahead, der’s da what ifs? Will? Can I do that? words na in the mind.

   Another thing is that she was able to let me MORE realized that we are not supposed to blame anybody on the trials or problems that we are experiencing—we are the one directing our lives, so we must be responsible on all consequences that may happen. We don’t have to blame other people, we r not supposed to blame the bad system, our status in life, our boss, the leaders in our society etcetera, etcetera. Well, I’m a victim of that before. I used to blame the bad system n the workplace, I got discouraged and disappointed by the attitude of our superiors up to the point of giving up. Yeah, sometimes we tend to change our priorities in life, because of those consequences, becoz of those wrong perceptions, sigh, it’s a matter of attitude again. Sounds bitter? Hehe. Nope, no regrets at all. Just got some learnings from it, and it’s just like saying, “Hey, you are not supposed to do that again”.

   Lastly, she asked me these,…I guess silly questions:

Xa: Do you like your job right now?

Aq: YesJ

Xa: Do you love what you are doin?

Aq: Yes of course!

Xa: Nice, but isn’t it before u told me u wnted to work n a corporate firm, I mean it’s ur dream to wear a corporate attire, the miniskirt or slacks chuva with your pair of stilettos, hehe.

Aq: J

Xa: What?

Aq: J (send her agen a smiley coz m trying to think of an answer na d ganong serious)

Xa: Yo, wazup, I ddnt mean to offend u, naalala ko lang ung alam mo na…

Aq: Yeah, it’s ok, i mean dats what I wanted to be…dats wat I wanted to be wen I still have a slim figure, haha, naman frend, cud u imagine me wearing a mini skirt ryt now? and stilettos? My gosh, baka it will make cra agad…sa bigat kong to. Haha. Actually, we have uniform hir, slacks nga lang, kinda business attire nrn, but frend, cnt wear stilettos parin not becoz m mbgat but bcoz of d location of d workplace…ders a stairway 2 heaven kc fr.r ofis 2d classrooms, …u know d hagdan,hehe. I wear high-heeled shoes 4a wik cgro, den after dat, I stick 2flat shoes na..doll shoes ganun…I almost make dapa kc wyl making akyat b4 sa hagdan, wapoise tlga..buti nlng m alone,hahaha!

Xa: Lol, gaga ka talaga, o xa cge mag-e-end na unli ko. Nxt tym ulet. Chika-chika,hehe. Kip in touch olweizJ mwah,nyt!

Aq: Kei, hope to c u sa bksyon, take care olweiz,gudnyt…tnx sa mga words of wisdom!

Xa: 1 message received: “instead of thinking about wat you’re missing, try to think about wat u olredy have dat everyone else is missing”.

Aq: Oh, kala ko ba gudnyt na, hehe. Pagkapili pili mo pa yata yang forwarded quote na yan bago mo sinend skn..hehe, joke lang..xa, tulog na tayo… SEND…SENDING MESSAGE FAILED…CHEK OP NA PALA AKO,J